Susan M. Trudgen's Testimony
When I was in Elementary school, a girl my age moved next door to me. Though from my early childhood I had attended church, God had never been personal to me. I soon became friends with her. She attended a Pentecostal church and always talked about God. She also introduced me to Christian TV, which I still watch to this day. I began to think about God more and more, until one summer day of 1991, while watching Christian TV, I accepted Jesus Christ as my personal Lord and Savior.
As I started school at the middle school a month later, I got too caught up in school and popularity to be concerned with God. When I entered into seventhgrade, I still kept God separate from my school life and my social life. I was ashamed to let other people know that I was a Christian.
One day a guy that was older and bigger than me forced me to do something that I did not want to do. Because I was ashamed, I lied to my friends and told them that I had let him. They ended up ditching me. After that, an avalanche of problems came my way. I became very depressed. I would stay in my room for most of the day, and in school and out I would continually write poems dealing with sadness and death. One day I was given the choice of becoming a Satanist. The thought of getting revenge on the people who were causing me pain was very tempting to me. But I remembered, I rejected Satan, and turned to God. I still had problems, but slowly they disappeared, and slowly I recovered from my depression.
When eighth grade began, I once again became too concerned with popularity to care about God. I began hanging out with people who had lower moral values than me. But I had a Sunday School teacher that reminded me so much of Jesus that I longed to be like him. Towards the end of the school year I stopped living the lifestyle I had led and I started living completely for Jesus. The kids in my church hated our Sunday School teacher and were very unkind to him. When I found out that next year he would no longer be a Sunday School teacher, I became sad. So, when my mom offered me the chance to visit a Pentecostal church, I jumped at it. I liked it, and began attending. I've grown a lot in my Christian life through that church.
I am now in ninthgrade, and living for the Lord. The Lord has given me some great friends (some Christians, others not) and a great Christian boyfriend. Right now I am fighting to start a Bible Study in my school, so I need all of your prayers. Some people make fun of me because I won't let them copy my homework or test papers, and I am trying to start a Bible Study. But, as the Petra song goes, "I would rather be a fool in the eyes of man, than a fool in the eyes of God." I am no longer ashamed of God. I know that He is real. I am a living testimony of His love, patience, and mercy. I've made a lot of mistakes, but God has forgiven me. No matter what you have done God still loves you, and if you will but ask, He will forgive you and change you.
I am enclosing a picture of my boyfriend and me.